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Well i guess this is bad news, at least to me.. Its one of the worst.Went to Dr Ang yesterday for scanning, but instead of seeing a 6weeks baby with a blinking heartbeat.. I saw none.. instead i was told that the baby is only 5weeks plus with no heartbeat. And ris was only 5weeks6days old with a blinking heartbeat. My heart broke immediately.

It was like my nightmare unfolding itself,i dreamt of the sac not developing well on wednesday. I wanted to go scan on wednesday but as friday hubby is off, i waited till friday for the scanning.

As Baby was too small with no heartbeat so Dr Ang arrived at the conclusion of:
1)Sac did not develop properly
2) Ovulated late
3) Implanted late

But the possibilty of ovulated late is almost 0 as i knew when i ovulated and i baby danced on the next day. Sigh... So its left with (1) or (3)... I hope #3 is a miracle baby who only implanted late.. This will be the worst 1 week wait .. either its a gone case or a miracle.. i`ll only find out on friday.

My feelings now:I cant afford to lose this baby again.. I lost one already. I cant afford to lose another.. Its suppose to me mine.. i hope for a miracle.. I beg for a miracle now.

Anyway i was given back my old booklet and its so nostalgic.. And there is a cute booklet given.. which i can put a few ultrasound pics in.

And florxine which is a few vitamins and folic acid inside. And an interesting fact known: You can take iron for people with thelassemia as for my case, it can cause death but its ok to take when pregnant.

Inside the booklet, one of the pages:

Baby #3

My old pregnancy booklet:

#3 ones:

And Bought these for #3 to lift my spirits up a bit including clothes for rislin

I also brought an anti stretchmark cream, the shaver was on offer at $15 only. thus i bought it at watson which i feel its a cheap find, but alas without offer was only $17.